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Justin and I have truly been blessed so much! We were blessed with quadruplets but 2 have became our guardian angels! We know our baby boys, Addison and Levi are watching down, helping God take care of us and Wesley and Cooper. This is the start of our journey so I have decided to make this blog for updates of all of the emotions and excitement that will happen along the way! Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers! Thanks to everyone for all of the congrats.! We are so excited and are thankful to have great family, friends and community that are wanting to help us! No one will ever understand how much it means to us! If it's your first time visiting our blog, start at the bottom and work your way up, or on the right hand side you can look by date.

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Finding the right words..

There is nothing easy about this post. It's hard to even put it into words. We knew there were going to be ups, downs and chances that things could change in a instant. That is what we found out today for sure and there was no possible way to prepare for it. We went to the doctor for a routine check-up. We are in the works of transferring to a high risk doctor and it was our second visit with them. We thought it was going to be just a normal visit with a sonogram to see the babies, their heartbeats and measurements and to also check my cervix. Little did we know, what they found instead was that baby A and baby B no longer had heart beats. Like we saw at all of our other visits, it was harder to see a separation between the two. Meaning there wasn't a strong membrane separating them and it was highly likely something could happen, as in one wrapping their umbilical cord around the other or the fluids not being transferred as well. At this point baby C and baby D are doing great. They both have strong heart beats and are measuring right at 17 weeks, which is right on schedule. We know it is going to be a fight, but we want to make sure they stay healthy as possible, along with me. We are leaving it in Gods hands and we know he has a plan for us and this is just a way of him telling us he is watching over all of us. Right before we went in to get our sonogram we actually had decided on the 4 first names. Baby C and D are Wesley and Cooper and baby A and B are Levi and Addison. It's so hard to say but now we know we have Levi and Addison, our little guardian angels, watching over all of us and our families.

Please continue to pray for our baby boys, us, as well our families. These weeks are not going to be easy and we are going to need all the love and support from the amazing people in our lives to get us through this. Please help us overcome our loss of our baby boys, Levi and Addison Masencup.




Rest in Peace baby boys! May God always be with you, and we know you will watch over us! We love you both so much!

Levi Masencup---Baby A


Levi and Addison Masnecup

Addison Masencup---Baby B
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37 comments:

  1. LaurelMarch 23, 2011 at 5:43 PM

    I am so very, very sorry to hear of your loss. . . .

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  2. AnonymousMarch 23, 2011 at 5:46 PM

    my heart breaks for you! I cant imagine how difficult this must be but know that I am praying for you all!!!

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  3. AndreaMarch 23, 2011 at 6:01 PM

    I am so very sorry for your loss! It took my breathe away! You and your family will be in my prayers and thoughts!

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  4. IsabelGellerMarch 23, 2011 at 6:54 PM

    I am so sorry to read of the loss of your babies. I hope their brothers continue to grow and thrive.

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  5. stopsignMarch 23, 2011 at 6:56 PM

    Sorry to hear this news,Sending prayers your way

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  6. ValerieMarch 23, 2011 at 7:21 PM

    I'm so sorry. Nothing can prepare you for that. I hope that Wesley and Cooper continue to do well.

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  7. Christina March 23, 2011 at 7:27 PM

    (((HUGS))) Thoughts and prayers for your family.

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  8. SpringMarch 23, 2011 at 7:43 PM

    Oh Megan & Justin, I am so sorry to hear this news. I know exactly what you are going through :( Right before I got pregnant this time I lost a set of twins. If you need anything at all please give me a call or text. You will all be in our prayers.
    ~Spring

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  9. UnknownMarch 23, 2011 at 7:55 PM

    Megan and Justin, My heart goes out to you. We are praying for you and Justin, Cooper and Wesley. I love you guys and I pray that you and the boys stay healthy. Be good to yourself.

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  10. Rachel and Mike CliftonMarch 23, 2011 at 8:23 PM

    Megan and Justin, you are remarkable. The fact that you can write this post with such grace and maturity amazes me (us). Please know that we pray for you and your family and wish you the very best. Life often doesn't make sense, but people like you help keep it in perspective... you are so strong! We are thinking of you and sending our love.
    Rachel and Mike Clifton

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  11. The McCleary QuadsMarch 23, 2011 at 8:41 PM

    We are so sorry for your lost, we'll keep all of you in our prayers and pray that both Wesley and Cooper continue to do well.

    The McCleary Quads

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  12. AmandaMarch 23, 2011 at 8:47 PM

    Oh...my heart goes out to you. Praying that God will be with you in this time.

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  13. RachelMarch 23, 2011 at 9:02 PM

    I'm so sorry for your loss! I will be praying that Wesley and Cooper continue to do well, and that you and Justin can continue to stay strong during this time!

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  14. AnonymousMarch 24, 2011 at 1:10 AM

    I am so sorry to hear this... of course you are all in my thoughts and prayers x

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  15. Meredith B.March 24, 2011 at 4:07 AM

    Megan and Justin-I am so sorry to hear this! You are in my thoughts and prayers! Wesley and Cooper stay strong!

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  16. UnknownMarch 24, 2011 at 6:24 AM

    You and your family are in our prayers! Know that your little ones watching over you from Heaven and that they will take extra special care of Wesley & Cooper. I can't imagine your pain, but as they say, "Let go, and let God".

    Sincerely,
    The McCoy Family

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  17. Kelly JeanMarch 24, 2011 at 6:53 AM

    I'm so sorry for your losses. You and your family are in my thoughts.

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  18. EricaMarch 24, 2011 at 6:54 AM

    You don't know me, but I found your blog on CNN.com in an article about you guys and have been following it for a few weeks. This breaks my heart and I can't imagine what you are going through. I am very sorry and I hope the rest of your pregnancy goes smoothly. Keep your head up and your prayers ascending. -Erica B.

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  19. SarahMarch 24, 2011 at 8:19 AM

    You are in our thoughts and prayers. Our hearts are breaking for you even as we cheer for Wesley and Cooper as they grow and develop.

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  20. JennyMarch 24, 2011 at 9:02 AM

    There are no words that can help ease the pain of losing a child, let alone 2 sweet babes.

    Your family will be in my thoughts & prayers.

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  21. AnonymousMarch 24, 2011 at 10:33 AM

    Justin and Megan, I am so sorry for your loss! I'm praying that the rest of your pregnancy is uneventful and that Wesley and Cooper stay healthy well.

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  22. MelMarch 24, 2011 at 11:35 AM

    There are no words to express your feelings right now. Prayers are going out for you and your family. My heart goes out to all of you.

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  23. tlhrobbinsMarch 24, 2011 at 2:48 PM

    Our God uses every hardship and time of suffering for His purposes, He is NEVER wasteful. I know He will be glorified in the midst of this and I pray that you and your husband will be able to clearly see His hand at work. In Christ with much love ...

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  24. KariMarch 24, 2011 at 5:05 PM

    I cannot imagine the sorrow you are feeling my prayers are with you and I pray Wesley and Cooper continue to thrive.

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  25. LaurenMarch 24, 2011 at 6:57 PM

    Dear Megan and Justin ~ My heart goes out to you. Like you said, Levi and Addison are your family's personal angels now. They are watching over you and Wesley and Cooper. I've been in your exact shoes and can image the pain you are feeling. I also know that the pain is mixed with new hope and beginnings as we are all extremely hopeful for Wesley and Cooper's health and safety.

    If you are bored on bed rest and surfing blogs, stop by mine sometime. I hope that my story doesn't discourage you, but encourages you to know all things are possible.

    My prayers are with you.
    Lauren
    laurensblog.greenfamily.net

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  26. MelissaMarch 24, 2011 at 8:43 PM

    I am so sorry for the loss of your babies. You guys are in my thoughts and prayers.

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  27. AnonymousMarch 25, 2011 at 10:41 AM

    I'm just a random pregnant woman who has been excitedly following your blog, and I just wanted to say I am so so sorry for your loss. I cant imagine how you must feel, but hold tight to each other and try to hang in there. So sorry for your loss, thoughts and prayers are with you.

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  28. VeroniqueMarch 25, 2011 at 11:33 AM

    I felt like crying while reading this post. I`m so sorry for you losses. Those precious little boys are now looking over you from heaven.

    http://www.lifeasaluce.blogspot.com/

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  29. SuzanneMarch 25, 2011 at 11:36 AM

    Dear Masencup family;
    So sorry to learn of the passing of Levi and Addison, and I pray that all will be well as you continue with your pregnancy. As I read this post I was reminded of the first part of the verse in Jeremiah 1:5 which says "Before I formed thee in the belly I knew thee...." God has a perfect plan for your family. He makes no mistakes. Praying for God's love, peace, comfort and wisdom for decisions. In Christ's name,
    Suzanne.
    (Mama of one blessing in Heaven, three at my knee and one on the way)

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  30. Charity DonovanMarch 26, 2011 at 6:13 AM

    I am so sorry for your loss. We are praying for
    Wesley & Cooper!

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  31. MichelleMarch 28, 2011 at 4:48 AM

    Megan & Justin,
    I am so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my prayers. May God give you strength through these difficult times.

    Michelle-

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  32. UnknownMarch 28, 2011 at 5:42 AM

    The heartache will seem unbearable. I myself lost a son born @ 22 weeks. There is nothing worse. Just know that you have two angels in your heart forever! I know that angel babies are a gift to you and your family. They make you appreciate all that you have, and all that you will have in the future. I pray for you and your family, I pray that the other boys grow into healthy big babies for you to hold in your Arms.

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  33. Lisa WheelerMarch 29, 2011 at 12:07 PM

    This is such heart breating news! Our thoughts and prayers are with you! God knows the plan so what ever happens your in his hands and very loved! I pray in this sad time you grow stronger in love and faith. Your boys will always have little angels watching over them as they grow! hugs and many prayers!

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  34. HannahMarch 29, 2011 at 7:35 PM

    I am saddened to hear about Levi and Addison, but rejoice to know that your angel babies are in Heaven and will never have to endure the hardships on this earth.
    <3

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  35. Jodie TummersApril 3, 2011 at 7:23 AM

    I am so very sorry for your loss and can completely understand the mixed emotions that you most certainly are feeling...which will likely continue for most of your pregnancy. My son Cameron is the sole survivor of a mono-di twin pregnancy that TTTS affected. I lost Cole at 23.5 weeks and carried both my boys, through numerous challenges, until 34 weeks. Every day was filled with so many feelings but always with hope.
    I've spent much time learning acceptance, finding hope and learning to cope with my loss...and blogged a lot of it along the way...
    http://journeytohopeandhealing.blogspot.com/
    Feel free to message me or leave me a comment if you would like the chat or have questions about anything we experienced including delivery and what that can entail.
    Much love, prayers and feelings of hope sent your way.

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  36. KristinApril 18, 2011 at 9:31 AM

    I found my way here after seeing "your" Nate Berkus episode. I'm sorry for your loss; it reminds me of my last pregnancy. I conceived di-di twins and lost Baby A at 9 weeks. I was sad to lose baby A, but I felt lucky to be carrying baby B into the second trimester. (Due to a uterine anomaly, I have a high rate of miscarriage.) My pregnancy proceeded uneventfully until 27 weeks, when I went into preterm labor. Tocolytics were uneffective, and I delivered a 2 1/2 pound baby boy on 7/13/10.

    Because of my experience, I want to share a few points:
    1) It is AMAZING that you naturally conceived TWO sets of mono-mono twins in one pregnancy. Nothing will ever change that.
    2) Lost but not forgotten, you will always carry Addison and Levi in your heart.
    3) Quad pregnancies are extremely high-risk. The average gestational age at delivery for quads is 30 weeks. Average birth weight is 1300 grams. Average length of stay in the NICU is 58 days. And half of quad pregnancies result in at least one baby with a major handicap.
    4) Fetal reduction is also risky.
    5) I'm convinced that I would have gone into preterm labor weeks earlier if I had carried both twins into the second trimester. Although survival and long-term outcome statistics are good for 27-weekers, they are much worse for 25, 24, and 23-weekers.
    6) The loss of Addison and Levi may be a blessing in disguise if it allows you to make it closer to term.

    You may already know these things, in which case please accept my virtual and hug and allow me to wish you a long and healthy pregnancy.

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  37. Amy-JoApril 20, 2011 at 9:39 PM

    Our prayers our with you. I know there are no words to make your heart hurt less Know your Angels are watching over you and helping you and your babies grow stronger every day. Please have a look at our blog to see our story.

    Amy-Jo. Http://satherslearnhowtomultiply.blogspot.com

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